Each Day Is A New Life.
Seize it. Live it.
suddenly i'm famous
and people know my name

My name is Christy. For safety measures, my full name shall not be written here. I live my life without regrets cause no matter what happened, I wanted it at that moment. Life for me is filled with ups and downs and it's just the way life should be. I do not hate people through what people say. My friends may hate you, but as long as you did nothing that concerns me, I hold no grudges on you.

Don't expect me to be someone you want me to be.
Accept me the way i am.
I am not you. I am me.
My blog is my life!


♥ Love me without fear
♥ Trust me without questioning
♥ Need me without demanding
♥ Want me without restrictions
♥ Accept me without change
♥ Desire me without inhibitions

my heart has been captured
by your funny little smile

I'd like to make a handful of things clear to all taggers.
■ Strictly no anonymous taggers allowed. [I do not wish to entertain anonymous tags no matter how obnoxious.]
■ Say what you want, but do think twice before condemning my blog. It is my blog and my life. Therefore, I write as I wish. Leave if you dislike. You do not have to write your dislikes in my shoutbox unless you have the guts to put your name.
■ Vulgarism of all forms are prohibited.

With that said, you may commence with your tagging.


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it's not just what you see. (09 September 2010 / 11:03 PM)



most people look at the rich people and think they have everything they want, living a happy life, having a beautiful home. well, that does not apply to me. my family is an average family. just cause my family can afford to get me the luxuries i want, it does not mean i am lucky. most of the time, i look and them and think, "you're the lucky one." why? money and luxuries are just temporary satisfaction. after a period of time, you're bored of it. i wish i was in your shoes. you have a mom who understand and a dad who will be there for you and not be another discipline teacher at home when you need a father.


you may think i'm ungrateful, but do not judge someone till you live their life. when i was a little kid growing up in this new world with no understanding of anything, i was with my babysitter. she took care of me, she understood me and i consider her as my mother. when i grew up and began to learn and understand things around me, i was taken away from my babysitter and i started living with my parents, people i barely knew them. on both important stages of my life, i was torn with two different parents. it's kinda hard to explain, i'll try my best.


so i began school with those two i call mummy daddy. we did not understand each other. there was no one i could go to whenever i need someone to understand me. since then, my feelings are kept to myself, barely expressed for no one understands and that would break my heart even more. nonetheless, i feel left out in this place i call home. sometimes, to me, it's just a place i stay. i can't express myself or be myself because no one here knows me or understands me. many times i tried building the bridge between me and them, but i fail every time i try. it takes two hands to clap.


i am now used to the way i live my life. i still do wish i have a mother who understands me and a father to be there for me. i wish i had my parents support and not just in terms of buying me food, providing me shelter and clothes. i wish i had their understanding and parental love.


my only wish now is that they accept Darren as the one i love. parents do not allow you to get involved in a relationship not only because they don't want it to affect your studies but because i guess they want to save you from the heartache or being used by him. maybe they should learn to trust who i trust and how i live my life. maybe they should stop restricting me from all and instead provide me with the support i need to make it happen.


mummy daddy, you can't teach me if you keep restricting me from all. i would never understand. it's human nature. i wish you supported how i live my life and be my mother and father when i fall not my discipline teacher.


i apologize if my words are screwed up. i don't know how to explain my emotions but i hope you understand.

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