My name is Christy. For safety measures, my full name shall not be written here. I live my life without regrets cause no matter what happened, I wanted it at that moment.
Life for me is filled with ups and downs and it's just the way life should be. I do not hate people through what people say. My friends may hate you, but as long as you did
nothing that concerns me, I hold no grudges on you.
Don't expect me to be someone you want me to be.
Accept me the way i am.
I am not you. I am me. My blog is my life!
♥ Love me without fear
♥ Trust me without questioning
♥ Need me without demanding
♥ Want me without restrictions
♥ Accept me without change
♥ Desire me without inhibitions
my heart has been captured
by your funny little smile
I'd like to make a handful of things clear to all taggers. ■ Strictly no anonymous taggers allowed. [I do not wish to entertain anonymous tags no matter how obnoxious.] ■ Say what you want, but do think twice before condemning my blog. It is my blog and my life. Therefore, I write as I wish. Leave if you dislike. You do not have to
write your dislikes in my shoutbox unless you have the guts to put your name. ■ Vulgarism of all forms are prohibited.
With that said, you may commence with your tagging.
this box here have no been updated for quite sometime already huh? life has been shit to me. well, shit happens. this time i screwed up and there really isn't anyone else to blame but me. anyways, i'll come back to that later. i've been wanting to update this box but have not because first, yea, that shit and things between me and Darren weren't that well a few days back. so back to shit happens, since that night, life just hasn't been great besides the fact my godmother approved us, me and Darren.
mama,
thank you so much for understanding. your approval truly means a lot to me. i'm sorry for everything that's happening.
it all started with that night when i got wasted and shouted at my parents by mistake. i was under the influence of alcohol, i did not control. i'm sorry. it got worst when my father saw the pictures of me and Darren in my camera and that is basically when life just turned upside down. i admit, we were to blame too. we did not take care of our limits. [ no, nothing dirty happened. just things parents of a soon to be 16 year old girl would never be pleased to see. ] for that, i do not blame them. if i were in their shoes, i would be mad too. my father told me not to see or get in touch with Darren. he also restricted me from mixing with all my other friends who was there. they were all innocent. they truly did not influence me to my mistake.
of course, all he said was before i told them the truth. but after i wrote to them the truth in a piece of paper, i heard nothing from him only from my mother who said she'll look through it. as usual, this family and our communication gap... [ it's either they do not know how to talk to you about it or they do not have the guts to say it so it's just left unsaid. it's like that in this family and i hate it. our level of communication and understanding when it comes to all this is minimal. how am i suppose to understand? ] so continuing, our communication gap is now leaving me clueless to what's going on. whether they understood or not, whether i'm allowed to see him already or not, i can't tell because they don't say a thing.
as for me and Darren, that night made us realized so much. we've changed now, maybe not much, but to what's right and should have been done since before. i am scared. i'm scared they would not forgive us. i'm scared they would not approve us. plus, they don't even know we're changing. we realized our wrongs. we're not crossing the line anymore and get those adults looking at us one kind. love is not about flirting, hugging or kissing. love is about taking away all that and still have feelings for each other. i really hope they give us another chance.
two souls can never be united without their parents' blessings.
if you have any advice, feel free to leave your comment below.
